Well, this is not totally related to weight loss, but it is more about the fact that I have come off my antidepressants, and essentially I've had several people in the past three days notice that my passion is back!!! Over the past several months I've noticed that I truly felt "nothing", no emotion what so ever! So, I talked to my primary care doctor about it when I saw him last and he agreed that perhaps I needed to come off my medication. Sooo.....two weeks later my emotions are running rampid and I'm regaining the fire I once had in me. Last night I was at the hospital while my sister was in the ER and I was telling the story of my car being in the shop and how I told the dealership that I would NOT be paying for my car repaired, I bought it Used Certified, and I they would be paying the bill, not me.....my brother looked at me and said "they have medication for that". Later my nieces, Tina, Rhonda and I were talking and Tina said "Where is all this coming from? I haven't seen you like this in years!" I said "I'm not medicated anymore", and they just laughed. Then, this morning in church I my heart was overflowing and I teared up, and the lady sitting next to me asked me if I was okay, and I then explained to her that I am fine, this is really me, and I am not on my medication anymore. Michael had asked me a few years ago, "mom, where is the passion that you used to have?", and I said "I still have passion, I just deal with it differently", well.....Michael...your momma's "passion" is back!!! I say all this to say that while antidepressants are definitely good, and many times over the past several years or so, I could not have survived without them; after all these years, I am having to learn how to live with myself again, hopefully it's not a bad thing, and hopefully those around me will be able to tolerate me!!!
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