Winter blues!!! I am really having trouble....I want to munch all day! I will be so glad when warmer weather returns! For some reason I have craved potato chips, and so far I've headed it off with tortilla chips......I don't know though, I'm beginning to think I need to just go ahead and have some potato chips and get this thing over with!
For some reason though I'm noticing that I seem to be having more trouble with sugar, which is a good thing. If you remember early on I couldn't stand the thought of sweets, and then around the holidays I felt like my sweet tooth was rearing it's ugly head, but lately it seems when I try to eat sweets they make me feel really bad for a while.....especially that cake and ice cream over the weekend! Since then I had some Peanut M&M's and they made me feel bad too, I ate some through the holidays and they didn't bother me at all. I don't care though.......if they make me sick I won't eat them!
Dianne's surgery is in just two days. It's been a long week for her and she's been really frustrated with insurance and everything, but it will all work out. She and I were talking last night about how nice it would be to just pick up and move to Florida, get warm and just start our lives completely over!!! I can't wait for summer.........hope I get to go to the beach!!!
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Saturday, January 29, 2011
DUMPED!!!
Well, today we had cake and ice cream for Andria's birthday, and yes I ate both.....don't think I will do that again......I got so sick!!! Cake used to never bother me, but I got a little sick from it on Keith's birthday and now this time......ice cream has bothered me a couple of times, but today it was really bad! I had a house full of company and spent about thirty minutes in the bathroom sick and still had to end up laying down for about an hour before it got better. I think I need to stay away from both! Cake has always been a favorite, but I think it kind of lost it's pizazz for me today!
I'm still at 117 lbs. lost, haven't lost any this week, but that's cool. Just 9 lbs. from Onederland! Had an opportunity to talk to a gentleman this week at work who had had the Sleeve procedure in December and he was telling me that he's done great and glad he did it. I think it's just so amazing what modern medicine can do and am so thankful and blessed to have had my roux-en-y bypass!
The next couple of weeks are going to be long, as Dianne is going to have her breast cancer surgery on Friday, February 4th. Keep her in your prayers.
I'm still at 117 lbs. lost, haven't lost any this week, but that's cool. Just 9 lbs. from Onederland! Had an opportunity to talk to a gentleman this week at work who had had the Sleeve procedure in December and he was telling me that he's done great and glad he did it. I think it's just so amazing what modern medicine can do and am so thankful and blessed to have had my roux-en-y bypass!
The next couple of weeks are going to be long, as Dianne is going to have her breast cancer surgery on Friday, February 4th. Keep her in your prayers.
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Thursday, January 20, 2011
I AM HEALED!!!
Yes, that's what I said "HEALED"!!! I had my appointment today with my primary care doctor and he heard "NO HINT" of wheezing! I have now been off my asthma medication for about two months, and I am doing great! This has been an awesome week, I had my appointment on Tuesday with the bariatric nurse practitioner and today with my PCP, both visits were uneventful in the fact that there are no complications. My PC told me that I am making his job "easy and boring" now!!! Woo hoo!!!!
My total loss is now 116 lbs., and I am feeling so good! New thing for me.....some chairs I sit in, when I go to get up my butt hurts!!! I've lost most of my padding! I am so blessed!!!
My total loss is now 116 lbs., and I am feeling so good! New thing for me.....some chairs I sit in, when I go to get up my butt hurts!!! I've lost most of my padding! I am so blessed!!!
Monday, January 17, 2011
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Do I Really JUST Love to Eat????
Okay, so yesterday I had a few hours at home to myself so I could clean, and while cleaning I had some time to reflect on some things I really hadn't given much thought to. I posted my link to this blog on my FB and one of my friends asked if she could share it, and my response was "You can. It was very difficult for me in the beginning to divulge so much information about myself, but it's really been kind of healing for me." After spending some time in thought about my statement, I realized that I had used the word "healing", and I began to reflect on what I must have meant by "healing".
In watching The Biggest Loser, I always get really irritated with Jillian Michaels because she's always saying the people need to find out why they're over eating, and work on resolving those issues. It's always irritated me because why does she think every fat person has "issues", why can't it just be they eat because they love to eat? This is what my problem is, right? At least that's what I have always thought....till I realized I used the word "healing". So what did I need healing from???? I reflected on the fact that I shared early on that my weight has always been an issue, however the years where I put on the majority of my weight were very painful years, those years following my mother's passing and yes, I was very depressed through those years. I moved past those years, right? Then I remembered that although I had actually pretty much been able to maintain my weight for many years, I had also gone through a relapse of my depression, so much so that I was having thoughts of suicide. I was sure I would never actually do it, but I was uncomfortable enough that after Keith threatened to have me committed if I didn't get help; I went the doctor and was put on medication for it. I did get better and was better for many years.
Then several years ago, we had some issues come up in our family, and my depression was rearing it's ugly head again, and two years ago my doctor added another medication in addition to what I was taking. It was during that time that I started to gain weight and my weight gain got out of control. It wasn't because of the depression though, it was the medicine,.......I had a hysterectomy and it was for sure going to get better, but it didn't, it got worse, I continued gaining weight. STILL though, I just loved to eat, it had nothing to do with my depression, right????? WELL........MAYBE NOT!!! WHAT???? MAYBE NOT???? It occurred to me as I was reflecting yesterday that I absolutely had underlying issues that had only been covered up by medication........DO WHAT????? ARE YOU KIDDING ME???? Yes, I realized I had ISSUES!!!!
The good news is that today, just nine months after my surgery, I have come off one of my medications completely and have cut the other in half, and am looking forward to coming off of it by the end of Winter. So yes Jillian, I realized that I did have issues that were sabotaging my efforts to lose weight and yes, I was eating myself to death because food was the one friend I had that gave me instant gratification. Unfortunately the long term results of that friendship were not healthy because the food controlled me, today I am learning with each passing day how to control the food!
In watching The Biggest Loser, I always get really irritated with Jillian Michaels because she's always saying the people need to find out why they're over eating, and work on resolving those issues. It's always irritated me because why does she think every fat person has "issues", why can't it just be they eat because they love to eat? This is what my problem is, right? At least that's what I have always thought....till I realized I used the word "healing". So what did I need healing from???? I reflected on the fact that I shared early on that my weight has always been an issue, however the years where I put on the majority of my weight were very painful years, those years following my mother's passing and yes, I was very depressed through those years. I moved past those years, right? Then I remembered that although I had actually pretty much been able to maintain my weight for many years, I had also gone through a relapse of my depression, so much so that I was having thoughts of suicide. I was sure I would never actually do it, but I was uncomfortable enough that after Keith threatened to have me committed if I didn't get help; I went the doctor and was put on medication for it. I did get better and was better for many years.
Then several years ago, we had some issues come up in our family, and my depression was rearing it's ugly head again, and two years ago my doctor added another medication in addition to what I was taking. It was during that time that I started to gain weight and my weight gain got out of control. It wasn't because of the depression though, it was the medicine,.......I had a hysterectomy and it was for sure going to get better, but it didn't, it got worse, I continued gaining weight. STILL though, I just loved to eat, it had nothing to do with my depression, right????? WELL........MAYBE NOT!!! WHAT???? MAYBE NOT???? It occurred to me as I was reflecting yesterday that I absolutely had underlying issues that had only been covered up by medication........DO WHAT????? ARE YOU KIDDING ME???? Yes, I realized I had ISSUES!!!!
The good news is that today, just nine months after my surgery, I have come off one of my medications completely and have cut the other in half, and am looking forward to coming off of it by the end of Winter. So yes Jillian, I realized that I did have issues that were sabotaging my efforts to lose weight and yes, I was eating myself to death because food was the one friend I had that gave me instant gratification. Unfortunately the long term results of that friendship were not healthy because the food controlled me, today I am learning with each passing day how to control the food!
Friday, January 14, 2011
Friday, January 14th, 2011
I just realized that it's the middle of January already!!! WOW!!! Time marches on. This has been the most awesome week, Keith went back to work and I have lost......4 lbs.!!! My total loss is 115 lbs now and I'm just 55 lbs from reaching my goal!!! Yes, I am so happy.
I threw up last night for the first time in months.....not exactly sure why, but I had eaten a couple of carrot sticks and then ate some left over meatloaf, and my stomach hurt for about 30 minutes, and then up it came. Not sure if I hadn't chewed the food good, or if the meatloaf on top of the carrots did it, or what. I just know that I was so glad when I finally got rid of it.
I'm still amazed by new found energy level. I got out last night and went to Ulta and was excited that I got three cans of hair spray for less than $8 each. They were buy two, get one free and then I had a gift card for $10, so my cost was less than $8 for a three month supply of hair spray....woo hoo.....I love to save money!!! After Ulta I went to Bed, Bath and Beyond and then decided to go see a $1 movie, so Marissa and I went to see "Life As We Know It". Cute movie, and a tear jerker (if you're that kind of person). Just as soon as six months ago when I would get home in the evening, all I wanted to do was sit and watch TV......now I'm ready to go!!!
I've been thinking about my mom a lot through the holidays and then her birthday coming up soon, just makes me wish she were here with me. I miss her so much, she was truly the wisest person I've ever known, and with every pound I lose she's more of an inspiration to me. I can almost hear her cheering me on!
I threw up last night for the first time in months.....not exactly sure why, but I had eaten a couple of carrot sticks and then ate some left over meatloaf, and my stomach hurt for about 30 minutes, and then up it came. Not sure if I hadn't chewed the food good, or if the meatloaf on top of the carrots did it, or what. I just know that I was so glad when I finally got rid of it.
I'm still amazed by new found energy level. I got out last night and went to Ulta and was excited that I got three cans of hair spray for less than $8 each. They were buy two, get one free and then I had a gift card for $10, so my cost was less than $8 for a three month supply of hair spray....woo hoo.....I love to save money!!! After Ulta I went to Bed, Bath and Beyond and then decided to go see a $1 movie, so Marissa and I went to see "Life As We Know It". Cute movie, and a tear jerker (if you're that kind of person). Just as soon as six months ago when I would get home in the evening, all I wanted to do was sit and watch TV......now I'm ready to go!!!
I've been thinking about my mom a lot through the holidays and then her birthday coming up soon, just makes me wish she were here with me. I miss her so much, she was truly the wisest person I've ever known, and with every pound I lose she's more of an inspiration to me. I can almost hear her cheering me on!
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