I believe I am finally starting to get it together....yesss! I did some real soul searching this week and did some more research in an effort to help me get it together, and I think I may finally have it! I weighed this morning and I have now lost 4 of the 5 lbs. I gained over the holidays. I have been walking consistently for three weeks now, and after doing some research I have discovered (what I really already knew) that I have been sabotaging my weight loss by having too many calories still. I decided to look at the gastric bypass information again and realized that I have indeed been grazing.....NOT GOOD! Grazing is where you eat a little at a time, but you pretty much eat all day long....and yes....that's what I've been doing. I've also been careless about eating carbs, and of course sugar since the holidays. One example of my carelessness is...when we go to a movie I get a small popcorn = carbs and a "large" Icee = sugar! Yes....it's true! This is just a sample of some of the things I've been doing which don't seem too bad at the time, but when I realized just how often this exact type of thing happens...that's when I realized...it's my fault I'm not reaching my goal....DUH!!!
So, last night when we went to the movies I made the decision before I went that even though I had a "$2.00 off coupon" for popcorn that I was not going to eat popcorn.....those coupons really mess with my head. I tend to feel like if I have a coupon to save money I "MUST" take advantage of it, right???? Well, amazingly enough I went last night and didn't use my $2.00 coupon, had unsweetened tea left from my dinner which I took in with me, and guess what??? I came home with about $10.00 more than if I had used my $2.00 coupon and gotten an Icee!!! How cool is that??? Amazing how that happens, and you know what else??? I stayed within my calorie range for the day.....even more amazing!!! Thus I wake up this morning, weigh and I have "lost weight".....WOW!!!
So...my goal for this next week is to stop grazing and stay within my 1200 calorie per day range, cut the sugar and carbs....hmmm...we'll see what happens!
Saturday, January 21, 2012
Friday, January 13, 2012
Still Struggling.....But It's Okay
Yes, it's two weeks since the holiday's ended, but I am still struggling to get back on track. I did manage to get one more pound off this week, so I just have three of my five pounds I gained over the holidays to lose now. I have walked everyday this week and I'm slowly, but surely getting closer to getting back on track. Proof yet again that they did not fix my head!
I remember talking to people who had been through gastric bypass prior to my surgery and they told me they had no desire for chocolate or sugar. So when I had my surgery I was sure that I would lose my desire for all the foods (mostly sweets) I love and crave. It did in the early days; I couldn't stand the thought of sugar, what I didn't realize, and what nobody told me was that eventually those things would come back to haunt me.
The winter is definitely proving to be difficult for me again as well. I am so bored sitting at the house when I come home from work and there is absolutely nothing on TV these days. So I sit there in the evenings and want to eat. With all the energy I have you would think I would get some much needed work on the house done, but instead I sit at my computer and play games most of the night trying to keep food off my mind. Definitely looking forward to Spring!
I remember talking to people who had been through gastric bypass prior to my surgery and they told me they had no desire for chocolate or sugar. So when I had my surgery I was sure that I would lose my desire for all the foods (mostly sweets) I love and crave. It did in the early days; I couldn't stand the thought of sugar, what I didn't realize, and what nobody told me was that eventually those things would come back to haunt me.
The winter is definitely proving to be difficult for me again as well. I am so bored sitting at the house when I come home from work and there is absolutely nothing on TV these days. So I sit there in the evenings and want to eat. With all the energy I have you would think I would get some much needed work on the house done, but instead I sit at my computer and play games most of the night trying to keep food off my mind. Definitely looking forward to Spring!
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Friday, January 6, 2012
Difficulty Starting Over
Well, here it is Friday, January 6th and I am definitely realizing the effects of "letting go" through the holidays. Getting back on the right track has proven to be more difficult than I anticipated. Journaling has gone well, but I am still facing those daily demons of "unexpected occurrences". Example: Yesterday Michael and Keith decided to bring me lunch.....well, I had already had my day planned out, so when they brought me lunch it completely messed me up. Instead of 160 calorie lunch of PB2 and sugar free jelly, I had Zaxby's chicken, a few fries and bread....total calories of 460; 300 more than I had planned. NOW....mind you IF I had just had two pieces of chicken and left it at that, I might have been okay with that at a total of 173 calories. Also, keeping in mind that I ate three chicken strips, only ate a few fries and didn't eat all the bread, but the increase of calories for that extra piece of chicken, few fries and 1/2 bread was detrimental in messing up my entire day of caloric intake. Then last night instead of eating light like I had planned, we unexpectedly went out and ended up eating fast food of Wendy's, and again....I ate too much food.....blew me off the charts w/ my goal of 1200 calories.
So, the moral of my story is......that slippery slope is very dangerous and once I go down it, it is very difficult to for me to get back on track....HOWEVER, I refuse to give up and today is a completely new day and I still have 37 more pounds to lose......so today I pledge to stay on track no matter what comes up.
The good thing about this week; my foot is better and I have been walking again this week. So...I guess the week hasn't been a total loss, plus I have lost 1 of the 5 lbs I gained through the holidays. I will be doing some updated pictures over the next week and am even planning on pulling out the clothes I had on in my very first picture and taking a picture with them on....hmmmm!
So, the moral of my story is......that slippery slope is very dangerous and once I go down it, it is very difficult to for me to get back on track....HOWEVER, I refuse to give up and today is a completely new day and I still have 37 more pounds to lose......so today I pledge to stay on track no matter what comes up.
The good thing about this week; my foot is better and I have been walking again this week. So...I guess the week hasn't been a total loss, plus I have lost 1 of the 5 lbs I gained through the holidays. I will be doing some updated pictures over the next week and am even planning on pulling out the clothes I had on in my very first picture and taking a picture with them on....hmmmm!
Monday, January 2, 2012
Happy New Year!!!
Happy New Year Everyone!!! Here it is January 2, 2012 and I find that I have gained five pounds over the holidays, have eaten quite freely this holiday season, and now I am paying for it. Not sure exactly why, but twice in the past week I've gotten food stuck in my stomach, and had to throw up before I could get any relief. Not a good sign!!! I haven't thrown up in quite a long time. Michael asked me today if I thought my stomach was trying to tell me something.......smarty pants!!! Needless to say I guess I am going to have to really pay close attention to what my stomach is telling me and kick myself back into gear here.
The holidays are finally over and although I'm dreading the long winter and several months now before I get another vacation, I am glad to be getting back into a regular routine and start getting myself back on track in more ways than one. We got Dianne moved back home a few weeks ago and she seems to be doing fine,and Michael moved back home the day after Dianne moved out. Michael is job hunting and has decided to go back to school in August to get his degree in psychology and get a Ph.D. Right now he is considering very strongly a school in New Mexico. Brock is still happy in his job at Amazon and we are praying very hard that Toyota will find placement for Keith with his restrictions within the next couple of weeks. This week they will finally open up the freeze they've had on transfers, so we are hopeful that something will break for him soon. Hopefully he and Michael will be working again soon, and our 2012 will get going in the right direction. It is much easier for me to stay focused on eating right when everyone around me is doing well. Michael says I will be his first psychological case......WOW!!! Probably a very difficult case to start out with!!!
Sooooo......goodbye to the chocolate, sugar and all those other foods that haunted me through these holidays, and hello to healthy eats, journalling and exercise!!! Tomorrow I will try walking with my foot and see how things go, hopefully well!!!
The holidays are finally over and although I'm dreading the long winter and several months now before I get another vacation, I am glad to be getting back into a regular routine and start getting myself back on track in more ways than one. We got Dianne moved back home a few weeks ago and she seems to be doing fine,and Michael moved back home the day after Dianne moved out. Michael is job hunting and has decided to go back to school in August to get his degree in psychology and get a Ph.D. Right now he is considering very strongly a school in New Mexico. Brock is still happy in his job at Amazon and we are praying very hard that Toyota will find placement for Keith with his restrictions within the next couple of weeks. This week they will finally open up the freeze they've had on transfers, so we are hopeful that something will break for him soon. Hopefully he and Michael will be working again soon, and our 2012 will get going in the right direction. It is much easier for me to stay focused on eating right when everyone around me is doing well. Michael says I will be his first psychological case......WOW!!! Probably a very difficult case to start out with!!!
Sooooo......goodbye to the chocolate, sugar and all those other foods that haunted me through these holidays, and hello to healthy eats, journalling and exercise!!! Tomorrow I will try walking with my foot and see how things go, hopefully well!!!
Monday, December 26, 2011
Christmas 2011....It's a Wrap!
Yes, it's been a while since I last blogged. Someone asked me a few days ago if I had stopped, but no, I haven't stopped I've just been engaged in life, and had so many changes over the past few weeks that I haven't really had much time for blogging. Two weeks ago we got Dianne moved back to her house, and the day after she moved out Michael came home to stay, so we've just been very busy changing and rearranging.....then of course it was time for Christmas...WHEW!!!!
I must admit that through the holidays I have been extremely laxed on my eating and I have had deserts galore!!! Did they make me sick??? Well, sometimes yes, and sometimes no. Last night though I was looking through a friends pictures (a friend who had gastric bypass a few years ago), and in looking through those pictures I realized that this particular friend is just as big now, maybe bigger than before bypass. It really opened my eyes to the fact that this battle I fight every day is still very much there. Last check I had gained about 4 lbs since the start of the holiday season, which isn't too terribly bad considering I haven't been able to walk for about 6-8 weeks because of the stress fracture in my foot. HOWEVER....I'm sure my friend didn't think it was too bad when they gained the first 4 lbs back either, and now I can only imagine how that person must feel. My battle is LONG from over, and in reality I will say this battle will never be over, at least until the day I meet Jesus face to face.
I don't believe in New Year's resolutions, however if I did, I would say that my goal for 2012 will be to finish losing the 33 lbs I still want to lose. I will try walking here in a week or so and see how my foot does; and hopefully that will be a go, and I'll be able to get back on track fairly quickly. Even with gastric bypass, I have discovered that exercise is still very much a vital role in the success of my weight loss. Not to mention that it really does make me feel better.
I hope each and every one of you have had a very Merry Christmas, and like me are looking forward to 2012. Twenty-eleven hasn't exactly been the best year for the Carroll's, so we are hoping 2012 will bring some positive changes to our lives, and hoping things will get back on track for us.
From our home to yours, wishing you all a very Happy and Safe New Year!
I must admit that through the holidays I have been extremely laxed on my eating and I have had deserts galore!!! Did they make me sick??? Well, sometimes yes, and sometimes no. Last night though I was looking through a friends pictures (a friend who had gastric bypass a few years ago), and in looking through those pictures I realized that this particular friend is just as big now, maybe bigger than before bypass. It really opened my eyes to the fact that this battle I fight every day is still very much there. Last check I had gained about 4 lbs since the start of the holiday season, which isn't too terribly bad considering I haven't been able to walk for about 6-8 weeks because of the stress fracture in my foot. HOWEVER....I'm sure my friend didn't think it was too bad when they gained the first 4 lbs back either, and now I can only imagine how that person must feel. My battle is LONG from over, and in reality I will say this battle will never be over, at least until the day I meet Jesus face to face.
I don't believe in New Year's resolutions, however if I did, I would say that my goal for 2012 will be to finish losing the 33 lbs I still want to lose. I will try walking here in a week or so and see how my foot does; and hopefully that will be a go, and I'll be able to get back on track fairly quickly. Even with gastric bypass, I have discovered that exercise is still very much a vital role in the success of my weight loss. Not to mention that it really does make me feel better.
I hope each and every one of you have had a very Merry Christmas, and like me are looking forward to 2012. Twenty-eleven hasn't exactly been the best year for the Carroll's, so we are hoping 2012 will bring some positive changes to our lives, and hoping things will get back on track for us.
From our home to yours, wishing you all a very Happy and Safe New Year!
Friday, December 9, 2011
It's Almost Christmas!
Wow! I can hardly believe Christmas is just two weeks and two days away! I am sort of ready to do it and get it over with. We've been under quite a bit of stress the past few weeks, and I have been eating probably a little too much. We are about to have some changes, in that Dianne is going home this weekend, after being here for a year and a half, and Michael is coming home to stay for a while. Keith has been off work since July and is waiting for Toyota to call him with a new placement for his permanent restrictions. Brock is working at Amazon and has just blossomed! We are so excited about him. Needless to say 2012 is a welcome sight....it hasn't been one of the best years for our family, but we're going to be okay. God hasn't left us yet, and I have no reason to believe that he's going to now.
December is a month I try to reflect, and remember just how blessed we really are. I always think of my mom and dad during the holidays and I miss them terribly still. My dad passed away 14 years ago this year on December 20th. I can hardly believe he's been gone that long. I have such wonderful memories of Christmas' past. I can still remember the smells of baking my mom used to do. She always made homemade candy, jam cake, and fruit cake. I sure would love to have something she made just once more. I loved holidays in the Tuttle home....and it was a "home". Family is such an important part of us, and I am so thankful that being the youngest of ten, our family is still close and I can't imagine my life without them.
I don't make New Year resolutions, but if I did, mine for 2012 would be to reach my goal weight finally. I am so close and I would love to reach my goal by Summer. I haven't been able to walk for several weeks now due to a stress fracture in my foot, and I can tell a difference in the way I feel. Hopefully in a few more weeks I'll be able to get back at it.
I hope that all of you have a very Merry Christmas and a wonderfully blessed New Year. God is good all the time! Can't wait to see what blessings are in store for 2012!
December is a month I try to reflect, and remember just how blessed we really are. I always think of my mom and dad during the holidays and I miss them terribly still. My dad passed away 14 years ago this year on December 20th. I can hardly believe he's been gone that long. I have such wonderful memories of Christmas' past. I can still remember the smells of baking my mom used to do. She always made homemade candy, jam cake, and fruit cake. I sure would love to have something she made just once more. I loved holidays in the Tuttle home....and it was a "home". Family is such an important part of us, and I am so thankful that being the youngest of ten, our family is still close and I can't imagine my life without them.
I don't make New Year resolutions, but if I did, mine for 2012 would be to reach my goal weight finally. I am so close and I would love to reach my goal by Summer. I haven't been able to walk for several weeks now due to a stress fracture in my foot, and I can tell a difference in the way I feel. Hopefully in a few more weeks I'll be able to get back at it.
I hope that all of you have a very Merry Christmas and a wonderfully blessed New Year. God is good all the time! Can't wait to see what blessings are in store for 2012!
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