Struggling!!!

I have moved the scale below 200, but I am really struggling to get it back down.  One of my biggest fears has always been that I will gain my weight back, and right now I am really struggling to not panic about it.  I don't know, maybe I should panic?????  I am journaling again, which is really very important with success in weight loss I have discovered.  I tend to think "oh I didn't eat much today", but then when I go back and reflect on the day, I realize "OH WOW!!!".  Journaling helps me to keep it under control and to stay focused.  I am trying so hard not to fall back into my old habits, but it's really difficult.  Sometimes I worry that I have lost my original focus and reason for having my surgery......to be healthy!