65 POUNDS GONE!!!!!

This just keeps getting better all the time! I have now lost 65 lbs.! I noticed this week that I am able to cross my left knee over my right.....can't remember the last time I did that. I can cross the right one over on the left, but not as well yet. A few weeks ago I realized I could actually reach my right foot in the shower to wash the entire foot standing up. After being fat for so long it's amazing the "little" things you forget that you used to be able to do. I've noticed now that I am losing weight and finding I can do so many new things, I am starting to remember why I like being normal sized so much, and why being fat is not all it's cracked up to be. After 20 years of being fat you tend to forget what it was you liked about being thin, and it doesn't seem as important anymore. I am finding myself more thankful everyday that I did this surgery. Thinking of my mom a lot these days, it was 20 years ago yesterday that I had my last visit with actual conversation with her. I remember that night they had brought the lady next to her in the hospital a strawberry shortcake with her dinner, and my mom talked about how good that looked to her. She was diabetic and they wouldn't let her have any, and I remember thinking if I had known it was going to be her last night I would have found a way to have gotten her that strawberry shortcake. She struggled so with her weight and I only wish she had had this opportunity. I remember once during her many times of losing weight with Weight Watchers (only to gain it back), she called me into her room one night and wanted to know what the lump on her hip was. When I felt it I said "Mom that's your pelvic bone". She was so excited, and I so understand that feeling now myself.

Friday, June 25th!

Well, I am now down 63 lbs.! Woo hoo! It's been a tough week because I've had a virus since last Saturday and have not felt well, but thank God I am feeling better now. Every time I have eaten in the last week, until yesterday, my stomach hurt. You would have thought I would have lost some weight this week, but no....guess oddly enough I wasn't eating "enough". I actually had someone tell me earlier this week they didn't know who I was! I suppose that's a good thing. Most of the time I find my relationship with food has changed to it being too much trouble to take the time to eat; and then I have nights like last night when while watching TV my "head" kept telling me I wanted something to eat. I was not hungry at all! I did end up getting some graham crackers.

Sixty Pounds Now!!!

I was down 60 lbs today!!!!! I actually fell below 270 last week while I was on vacation and I honestly cannot remember the last time I weighed less than 270. What I do know is that it has been years! I guess my next big number to fall below will be 200, which I really have a difficult time imagining will ever happen. It has been about 19 years since I was below 200. I am noticing that I am able to eat more now. Last week on vacation for the first time I had a McDonald's cheesburger. I took the top of the bun off and ate the rest, I ate slow and got it down just fine. This morning I didn't have milk to make a protein shake, so I fixed an egg w/ cheese on that new "thin" bread, and I actually ate the entire sandwhich. It took me about 25 minutes, but I did get it all down.

Back From Vacation

The beach was amazing! So thankful to have had the opportunity to go, and thankful still yet that I actually went on vacation and "lost" 5 lbs. I am now down 58 lbs. Just another example of how my relationship with food is changing. Usually when I'm on vacation I think a lot about eating whatever I want, no diet; however this vacation I was able to focus on the scenery and getting out and doing things. Food was not top on my list of things to do. The beach, the pool, and enjoying time with old friends were the highlights of my vacation. I did have sugar free ice cream three times while I was gone and it was good, but I only had about one scoop on a cone each time. I felt amazing and was able to actually relax most of the time. I enjoyed every moment of it, just wish it could have lasted a little longer. I could so move to the beach!

New Pictures

Graduation Day!

Wow! Brock and I both finally made it.....he graduated! He has had so many obstacles to overcome that I am so very proud of him. For him getting through school has been a lot like me trying to get rid of this weight.........had to take drastic measures to get it done. He is doing so well now though, and has such a bright future ahead of him. I must admit that tonight I had to have a couple of bites of his graduation cake. So far it hasn't done anything to me, and I'm not sure that's a good thing! Granted they were small bites because I was somewhat afraid, but I still ate it. I have been up since 4:00 a.m. working on getting things ready for the party tonight, and it went off without a hitch. However, right now I am simply exhausted. We took pictures and Michael came and told me I had to look at them because I was actually smaller than him, Keith, and Brock.....that's a first! Oh.....I forgot to mention that I have now lost 53 lbs. Vacation next week, going to Florida for a much needed rest! Everyone have a good week and I will post when I get back!

Wednesday, June 2nd

I am at 51 lbs now. I actually ate a whole cheeseburger last night, ketchup, mustard and mayo, pickles, no bun, and I had about 6 Pringles. I can't believe the energy that I have, I am beginning to feel like the Engergizer Bunny. I think it's due more to the fact that I'm not eating any sugar and very few carbs than the weight loss. It's a good thing! Yesterday, I looked in the mirror and really noticed a difference. I don't quite understand how the body works like that; that I've only lost 4 lbs in the last week, but all of a sudden yesterday, it was like I could all of sudden "see it". Maybe everything is settling. I'm just feeling so blessed and thankful that I finally had the courage to have the surgery. I still look at soft drinks and think "ohhhh....I would just love to have that", but I know it certainly would not be worth the suffering, so it's pretty easy to resist. Just two more days till Brock's graduation and party, YES!!! We have our party here on Friday with Marissa, and then Saturday night we have a party with Lauren and Matthew for my family. After that we are leaving for Florida for vacation, and I can't wait! I so need a vacation.