Here is a view of my thinning face.

Wow! I have really fallen on my blog.  Pauline is still in the hospital and is not doing well at all. In fact she has decided she won't have any further medical treatment and is now waiting for a bed in the Hospice Unit.  I think the whole family is struggling with that decision, however we do understand that she is exhausted and the doctor's have told her there really isn't anything else they can do that would change her outcome.  It is breaking my heart to know that I have to let her go.  My parents lost their second child when she was two years old, but none of us except for Patsy even knew her, so we didn't experience her loss. Pauline will be the first loss of a sibling for us, and I can tell you...it is very difficult! One of my biggest fears in life has always been that my older siblings will all pass before me and I will be left alone.  She is just the beginning of that possibility becoming a reality. We have been extremely blessed that we have gone this many years without a loss like this or of any kind really except for our parents.  

That being said, this is a real test of my ability to stay in control of my eating habits while under an unsurmountable amount of stress.  I haven't gained any weight and am holding my own, but I will say that I have fallen to having an occasional candy bar while at the hospital sitting around waiting.....boredom and stress together.....not a good combination.  I have also been drinking an awful lot of soft drinks.  I have tried over the past few days to pull it together and I think I have done fair.  One thing people have been telling me recently is how thin my face has become, and I have to say it has.....I haven't lost anymore weight, so not sure exactly why my face has thinned.  Only explanation I have come up with is, maybe it's because I have been chewing a lot of gum???? 

I will try to do better at posting!  Hopefully I will get through this hump here and get the last 20 lbs. off someday!!!