June 28, 2011

Well, I decided it's time for a new attitude so I decided to update the look of my blogger and reflect the changes that I'm making to try to get this jouney completed! I have increased my protein intake, decided to cut back to half pot of coffee (instead of a whole pot), I'm cutting out my Greek yogurt because of the sugar content, trying to eat slower (which is sooooo....diffficult for me), and add water to my daily routine.........if all this doesn't get things moving.........I have NO IDEA WHAT ELSE TO DO!!! I figure if I do all this, the only left for me is to "wait", which those of you who know me....know that's a difficult thing for me to do!

It just occurred to me that today is really a great day to mark my changes...it was 21 years ago today that I had my last conversation with my mother before she passed away. I remember going to see her that evening and it was just me and her in the room and we talked about me being pregnant (I had just found out I was expecting Brock), and she was worried about me because I had just lost all my weight I had gained after having Michael and she was worried that I would gain it all back (.....hmmmm.......if she had only seen me a year ago!). She wouldn't let me bring Michael in to see her that night because she had found out there was a kid admitted to the same floor she was on that had been diagnosed with Spinal Menengitis; she could never have lived with herself if he had gotten sick because of her. There she was laid up in the bed facing her last hours of life and all she could think about was others! I also remember that her roommate had gotten strawberry shortcake that evening for dinner, and my mom talked about how good that looked and how she was wanting some so bad. Mom was diabetic so they didn't bring her any, however as I reflect on how much the world has changed in the last 21 years, today they would have brought her the strawberries with artifical sweetner on them. I remember thinking the next night, that if I had only known it was her last night of life, I would have gotten her that strawberry shortcake!

June 21, 2011

WOW!!! I didn't realize it had been so long since I posted. I am still hanging in there, but pretty much the same old story.....stall, stall, stall!!! Hopefully it will end soon. I am still hanging around the same few pounds, bouncing up and down! Really wish I could at least get below these few pounds so I can fall below 200, but hopefully in due time. Supposedly I am not finished losing weight, so I am hoping to start moving down again soon.

Since my surgery I have not had to start back on my hormones because I haven't had any issues, but the past few days I am having hot flashes again. Last night was miserable....I would cover up because I was freezing, then I would wake up a while later burning up and have to kick my covers off, then start freezing and start the whole process over, it went on all night! I may have to call my gynecologist if it continues!